Saturday, March 23, 2013

not a good day


So, last week (Tues. March 12) I found out I was pregnant with a faint line on a HPT. We were SO excited. Fast forward to Tuesday, March 19. I had my first OB appointment. They could not see much except *maybe* the tiniest little sac on the sonogram. My HGT levels were so so and my urine test was, again, positive, but still very faint. They assured me I was just very, very early but I felt something was "off". I came home and tested again.. hoping to see a darker line with my HPT. Nope, no dark line... just another faint little line a week after my first BFP. Anyway, so I've had a bad feeling for a few days now.

I woke up today and realized I was miscarrying. I thought I would handle it well but not so much. It's been a rough day of terrible cramps, bleeding and lots of tears. Ugh.

To top it off and add a little humor to an already rotten day. I went out for a hair cut and eyebrow wax to cheer myself up a little. The haircut... especially the bangs... was just not exactly what I had in mind. The eyebrow wax was lousy. My sister helped me choose a pretty blonde, L'Oreal, hair color and helped me color my hair. Oh my! I thought I was getting a pretty golden blonde color. Um, not so much... it's more of a reddish strawberry blonde which does NOT suit me.

Gee.. what a day. :(

8 comments:

  1. All of that is so disappointing! I'm so sorry.

    I call those "no" days. When I used to work in sales there would be yes day where everyone wanted what I had. And then there were no days where nobody wanted anything. All I heard was no. Those were the days I stopped everything and did nothing for the rest of the day..

    Lay down, do nothing (as much nothing as possible with kids), and just be. Tomorrow is a new day. And, you never know when you'll have a yes day. Soon, I hope. I've been there.

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  2. Oh no, what terrible news, I am so sorry to hear that. I really hope you are okay, keep resting as much as you can. :( x

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  3. I'm so so sorry, friend. I'm glad you shared this with us, so we can support you...and you don't have to deal with this in secret as so many do. Be sure to take it easy. As far as your hair goes, maybe you can do another over the counter color kit with a bright blonde to overdo the color you put on today. I know how lousy a bad hair job can make a girl feel. :( Especially when you just need something to go right. I'm sending prayers your way.

    XOXO,
    Meredith

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  4. I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  5. So sorry to hear about your loss !!!! My prayers are with you and your family .

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  6. Oh wow, that is so scary and so hard. I can't even imagine. Hopefully some happy things will start happening soon!

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  7. Oh no, that is probably the worst news ever. I am so sorry...

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